well of course, it’s a staple food in my book!
I should be happy for my friends when they are in for better and bigger things right? I know I should, but it just sucks always being let down and always having the luck of a rock. I suppose things always happen for a reason, and I’ll just let God do his work.
I’m a Chinese person living in America haha (wished I lived in England though)
I’d probably pass out, and I’d need noodles to regain consciousness x
Sometimes, life just isn’t good to you. There are disappointments, and with them, come long cries. And that’s ok. Because life is never “perfect.” There are always those moments when you just want to escape life, perhaps into a refuge where you can’t get hurt or disappointed, but you have just got to continue. To move on.
And then there’s the idea of being “good enough.” I have just now realised that I will never be good enough. There were always be people better than me no matter how hard I try. I’ve just now realised the lie to “If you’ve tried your best, then everyone else will realise it too.” No, that’s not how it works. You could have the determination of Martin Luther King, Jr., but if you don’t have the natural talent or intelligence to go further, it’ll be to no avail. You tell yourself, “I did so well,” but it never fails that there are 23984 people who did better than you. Sometimes, life is just not good to you. You just have to remember all of the things you take for granted: a family, food, water, shelter… Many people around the world don’t even have these simple things, so why am I complaining? I’ve got to hold myself together. There’s always light at the end of a dark tunnel, right? An open door where others have closed it?
Failure: it’s the word I dread. I suppose I’m depressed and on the verge of breaking because of the fruition of it. Sometimes, these standards I set for myself are unattainable and just impossible to achieve, but for some reason, I just can’t bring myself to lower these standards, so failure is what I have come to. Failure, failure, failure. BUT NO, I CAN’T THINK THIS WAY. OPTIMISTIC VIEW OF LIFE, right?
So by venting, I hope to shrug all of this off, but I know that’s not going to happen. It’s going to take a lot more than Adele and typing to get through this. I’m going to open my eyes and see the world as one open for opportunity and success, not one where failure is inevitable. Even if I may never be at the top, I will just hope to do the best I can do. I need to be happy with the best I can offer.
This fear of failure isn’t going to get me anywhere. It’s only going to make me more depressed, so I must take a deep breath, and continue. I WILL become successful. I WILL make an impact on the world we live in. I WILL not yield to failure. Just like Edison said, “I have not failed. I’ve just found 10,000 ways that won’t work.” In that way, I’ll say, “I have not failed. I’ve just realised what I shouldn’t do and learn from those mistakes.”